If you've read my previous blog post on my initial review for this korean drama Yumi's Cells, then you're aware that this drama tackles about some psychological concepts.

I want to share the dialogue of one of the animated scenes in episode 4 of Yumi's cells, when Woong's love cell was trying to enter Yumi's cell village or her heart.

YUMI'S GUARD CELLS: Do you think any man can enter Yumi's heart? This gate requires a 28-digit                                                password. 

WOONG'S LOVE CELL: A 28-digit password? Why is it so long? Woong's town is only 4 digits.

YUMI'S GUARD CELLS: Now you know it so go. For the last three years, no one passed this gate.                                                  Yumi isn't an easy woman.

This scene really caught my attention for I love how they used the 28-digit password to describe how Yumi became emotionally closed-off after getting her heart broken from her last relationship.

As humans, we have this natural reflex to protect ourselves, may it be physically or emotionally. People who have been hurt in the past or experienced really great pain have the natural tendency to become emotionally closed-off. It's kind of a defense mechanism to protect themselves from being hurt again. I do believe that this is a normal reaction and that when it happens to a person, one should acknowledge the feeling, and give one's self the time to heal. One should keep in mind that what he/she is feeling is valid and that one shouldn't let other people tell or convinced them otherwise. Acknowledge, feel and then heal. I do think this is the normal process for us humans.

Now let's talk about healing. The healing process is different for every person. There are people who may take it a longer time to heal than most people. In my opinion, this will depend on the effort and willingness of the person. There are lots of articles and advices that you can search here in the internet about healing which admittedly some may work for most, some may not. The key is finding what will really work for that person as this will depend on one's personality.

Going back in the case of the drama character Yumi, for her to get through that painful phase, she decided to focus on her work that served as a form of distraction. She made herself busy with work that she even made a new reputation for herself in their company of being a really reliable and good worker. It did work for her but I feel like she didn't really moved on as she's still emotionally closed-off and seems not really happy with her life in the first episode. That is not until she let her guard down for Woong. There was even time when she's questioning what she really is one emotional night of thinking. Her thoughts were like about who she really is, what she wants to be and that she's not really the best of anything and yet she's not the type who's doing her best to enjoy life either. I'm glad and relieved though that she has these kind of thoughts for it shows that she's still aware of her life.

To share, I myself went through the same thing, a painful phase. There was a time that I felt the pain of betrayal that made a big impact on my relationship with other people. You see, I'm the type of person who trusts easily and always give every person the benefit of the doubt. I used to be the type of person who always find the good in others. By getting really in touch of my emotions, I eventually noticed the changes in myself. I started to become really doubtful of people that it's now a bit hard to gain my trust. I know this is not healthy and I feel like I lost my real self in the process. Evidently, I'm not yet done with the process of healing.

To end this post, I do hope everyone who has experienced pain, still experiencing pain and those still in the process of healing like me will soon see the light at the end of the tunnel. It may be a long journey but eventually we will get there like as they say "trust the process". Let's help ourselves achieve that much needed healing.